Me and my boyfriend have decided that we are going to have a baby in a couple of months. I cant wait till we get started. I have had several interviews so Im sure to get a job soon. I think everything is going just the way I planned. We decided we would have a family after an OPPS last month. We thought I was pregnant, but it turns out that im not. I was disapointed and I did cry when I found out I wasnt, but there is always next time. I hope we have a boy or even a girl It really dosent matter as long as he or she is healthy. I cant wait until me and my boyfriend move in together in June. I just want to spend all my time with him. I just completed my midterms and thank God thats over with. I had a total of two papers to turn in for one class. along with all the other papers that were due in my other classes. I think I have had a total of 10 hours of sleep this week.

Mood:  bright
Well everything has been going cool with me lately.. my family on the other hand is another story. My oldest cousin tried to kill herself earlier this week after she had a fight with her sister... I dont know why shannon act the way she do.. she knows chat is sensitive. She cant really control her situtation,. Me and my boyfriend had a fight last night... really mnday night but everything is cool now. I will not have no man telling me what to do except my daddy. and well there is no ring on my finger yet so.. well i do what i want to do. I put oout some avon brocures today.. I got to try to make some money. So I may as well make the best of this thing.. Ill just have to see how it goes. I pray to god Ill get some calls and I hope I have some big orders. I need to get my lasy ass on the phone and call some businesses to try to get some more customers or even take my heathen ass to church. I know all those ladies would buy something from me. Well I just got to work harder. maybe spend less time with my boyfriend and spend more time working at this thing.There's a job fair tomorrow, but I wont be able to go. I got class and stuff and I dont have a good resume so.. I probally wount get a job anyway. damn I cant wait till april 1st. all my friends are trying to pursuade me to go to grad school but I dont want to go. well not right away anyway. well Ill just wait and see what happens.

Mood:  happy
Yeah I pretty Happy right now... Way better than I was yesterday. I sell Avon so i just sent in my order.. I guess you could call it a job, but in my mind a job is something where you bring home money. I get no money selling Avon. Oh well. I guess I go back to studying for this quiz I got tomorrow I havent even attempted trying to finish this paper. I really should but Im too lazy. If your interested the paper is on smoking addiction and well my addiction to cigarettes. Sound borng hh. well its just another one of my bullshit asignments for class. I will probally work on it some mre tonight before I go to bed. Ill probally go job hunting once again after class tomorrow. I never can get a job where I want to work. however, all the places where I despise I can geta job on the spot. what to do What to do??? I dont know. I wish I knew all the answers but unfourtunately I dont.

Life sucks!!!
Mood:  hug me
I am completely fed up with everything around me! I'm broke; I have no job; and on top of that I live in a house full of monkeys! I wish sometimes I didn't have to go through so much stuff. I am completely wiped out from school (and I only take 12 hrs). I thought my last semester of college was going to be a breaze. Boy, was I ever wrong. I have 2 papers due next week and a test in a class I still don't understand what going on. At. least i have my boyfriend to talk to about SOME of the shit that happens in my life, Otherwise I would go crazy. For some reason it seems like everthing is going against me right now. I have filled out about 50 applications for jobs, and I am in no way exaggerating, and i have only got 3 calls back, went on 3 interviews and no fucking job. WHat the fuck am I doing wrong?? well I geuss my like isnt really that fucked up. It could be worse. At least I had a good weekend so far. Lord only knows what sunday will bring. I went to sumter, Sc friday night with my boyfriend and today we went to a movie. I love the time I spent with my boyfriend. I can escape from my schizerphrenic grandma and my angry at the world mom who worries about everything under the sun. Icant stand being in this house because sometimes I think If I am here for another minute I will go crazy too. Icant wait till April 30 when I graduate. Hopefully I will have a job by then and I will be able to move out of this hell!